The Solution Is Never Black or White
In his post on Medium, Ben Benson (he of the striking username “AskaPsychoticKid” on Ask.fm) writes about the frightening serial delusions (part of a psychotic break) that led to him being hospitalized for—well, they actually still don’t totally know, which means that he doesn’t totally know, which sounds incredibly demoralizing and incredibly frustrating, especially for someone so young. He writes (and I wholeheartedly agree): “There’s no such thing as a completely accurate diagnosis or treatment…Finding a medicine that works is very much a process of ‘try it, it’ll either make you better, make you worse, or it might just kill you.’ Mental health is the Wild West of medicine.”
Yup—and repeatedly having to visit this Wild West can be nothing short of infuriating. I know because I’ve been a frequent guest (no delusions for me so far, but I’ve struggled with chronic depression since high school, and there have been all of zero psych meds that have consistently worked for me).
The Pain of the Gray Area
Jiwon Lee was a 29-year-old Columbia dental student who had also had an impressive, successful run as a comedian; tons of her comedy-world friends have commented or tweeted about their sadness upon learning of her death. Lee had a history of depression and had, reportedly, attempted suicide just a few days before she went missing on April 1. Her body was found in the Hudson on Monday, effectively ending the search and bringing, I’d imagine, a painful and unwelcome resolution to some of the questions her family and friends had been asking since she was last seen in April.
Mental health issues and addiction have a huge overlap—and while addiction hasn’t been reported as an issue that plagued either Benson or Lee, reading about their struggles and the way those struggles have played out just makes me feel all the more motivated to start taking my (and other people’s) mental health more seriously.
Double Whammy
If you’re an addict or alcoholic, many experts would say you’re already afflicted with a mental illness of your very own (uh, yay?). Having two or more problems of this nature is known as “comorbidity”—i.e., two or more disorders happening in the same person. These conditions can occur at the same time or concurrently, and “comorbidity also implies interactions between the illnesses that can worsen the course of both.” Compared with the general population, “people addicted to drugs are roughly twice as likely to suffer from mood and anxiety disorders,” which is just downright shitty.
I’m glad Ben Benson is trying to address his condition and shed light on a sickness that affects so many of us worldwide. It’s a pain that can and often does lead to suicide, and it deserves to be discussed more openly in the hopes of reducing the stigma.